i wish my
socialanxiety wouldn’t get in the way of so much.i wish i wouldn’t have an existential crisis every two hours. i couldn’t write in health class today because i got too caught up in the act of thinking about my own existence and how strange everything was and whether anything existed outside of my own mind. and then i became very scared. i felt so alienated.
sometimes i wish i’d be able to relax and stop thinking long enough to breathe and enjoy all of this. sometimes i think i’ve done just that, but then i begin to analyze everything and my thoughts all vie for power and my mind pits itself against me again.
i always find my mind racing around the syntax of things. i scare myself sometimes.
how ridiculous is that.
…i identify with this
wow i should be asleep right now i have so much homework i’m putting off i’m really getting behind in school i will not get a b in biology damnit i cannot put off my art sketchbook again but i’m going to hey maybe we’ll kiss some more tomorrow we had our first snowday yesterday woo we played outside and totally froze it was wonderful i like talking on the phone with you it’s my birthday on sunday i’ll be fifteen it’s kind of frightening i hope it’s fun why i am not sleeping again damn so much is going on right now and yet i’m still able to balance it all just barely it’s amazing what humans can do in the most extreme circumstances i want to live breathe go move feel experience know create everything everything everything, i want to understand it all
you said “goodnight, darling”
my heart melted a little
i swear this is all true, it feels like a dream but its real real real
it’s the greatest feeling
as you can see, i really like the levi’s campaign.
all credits to photographer ryan mcginley
:D
little prince,
it is dark and pictures are flashing on the big, glossy screen in front of us and i pretend i know what’s going on in the movie and i pretend i’m not wondering what you’re thinking and i pretend i’m not begging for your elbow to do that annoying thing where it takes all of the armrest and leaves none for me. i’m pretending i don’t want to be one of those people who sits in movie theatres just kissing and i’m pretending i don’t want you to do the cheesy thing where you yawn and put your arm around me.
i call you pretentious, but i’m a little hypocrite. can you do that yawning thing now please?— princess j
I’m madly excited
mine’s in 9!
mine’s in 13! well, counting today. woo i’m excited :D
